Shifting back from "Overdrive"...
Does it ever seem to you that someone shifted life into "overdrive"? This summer has literally flown by, and we're looking at the "ides" of July tomorrow. By any standard that's the middle of summer. Before we know it our children will be going back to school, and in the Marshall household that's going to be more challenging than usual, as we send Abby off to Seton Hill. We'll be a three person household most of the time instead of four for the first time in nearly 14 years. I've found this summer particularly challenging when it comes to keeping pace with all that's on my plate. Sure, I could say that with Abby graduating, moving into a new house, squeezing in a vacation and a mission thrip, that difficulty in keeping pace to what's on my plate is to be expected. In fact, that's what most of us do. We say, "How can anyone expect me to keep up with everything I have going on in life?"
It hit me this week as I was driving down the road, one night looking at the little green light surrounding the shift indicator on the '89 Honda Accord we recently acquired to replace our '95 Mercury Mystique that "died" on us, that just as the Accord has three different gears: D4, D3, D2 (one wonders what happened to D1?!), life has different gears. Of course, in cars the "overdrive" gear reduces wear and tear on the engine at higher speeds, by reducing the RPM's, but in life when we say we're in "overdrive" we usually mean the opposite. We mean we're living "full out" at maximum velocity and RPM's! That sounds good--especially to me it sounds good--because "full out" would seem to indicate we're getting everything we can out of life. Actually, when we live "full out," that usually means we have no "margin". Margin is the "space" of time and money that I've been working hard to put into my life for years. I actually got to the point where I had some margin last fall, and part way into the winter. I was working ahead on messages, bible studies and other areas of ministry. That meant when something unexpected came up it was no big deal. I just "down shifted," took care of it and then went back about life as usual.
Then something happened. Part of it was the house construction process. Part of it was realizing it was Abby's senior year and wanting to invest more time with her, part of it was more than the usual unexpected events taking place in succession, and part of it quite honestly, was wasting some good time at times. In any event, I woke up realizing that I was in "overdrive," that I was playing catch up in every area of life, with no margin left. When something unexpected came up, the only choice was to sleep less or neglect something else. For someone with my personality type, overdrive actually feels good, sometimes even better than shifting back from time to time and building margin. According to Dr. Don Colbert in his book Deadly Emotions, some of us get addicted to adrenalin, which flows freely in that overdrive mode of life, and to shift back is to miss the "high" it produces. Dr. Colbert makes a LOT of sense, especially since he points out that living in "overdrive" all the time is literally life shortening!
Anyway, as it hit me that life has different gears, and that I was constantly in overdrive these past several months, I realized something: the overdrive life isn't sustainable over the long haul. It isn't good to model that kind of life for others, and it causes inconvenience to those around you when you drop what's expected of you, because something unexpected comes up and you have no margin built in with which to address it. So, I'm shifting back from overdrive right now. It's challenging, because I'm already behind in most areas. It's challenging, too, because the margin-filled life, the life in D3 or D2 isn't as exciting as the life in D4--at least for me. But the key for me to remember is: my life is NOT my own. I belong to Jesus, and I belong to the body of Jesus Christ! How I live is a reflection to others of whether I'm letting Jesus lead my life--letting Him choose the gear. It also determines the effectiveness of the local body of Jesus known as New Life Christian Ministries, because as the Apostle Paul aptly reminded us every part of the body impacts every other part! So, here comes D3, or D2, whichever Jesus chooses. What gear are you in right now? Is it the one Jesus has chosen for you?
















